Gambling.... YOU BET, I BET, WE BET...

"begin with the end point in mind"

ending one. starting another.
plural respectively rather.....

what are my endpoints?
how to begin with the end point if its not even defined???

its only jan08.
wonder what would have happened when jan2010 comes along...

God will refine. define. make those lessons mine.

how God puts people to walk the same journey with you at around the same period... Thankful...

interesting also how God puts people after you have walked thru journeys so that you can walk with them as they go thru.

macham some big cosmic jigsaw puzzle.

oh well. there's no such thing as coincidences.

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seeing a bad end will teach you what is the good end.
but doesnt prevent you from crashing into itself still.

You'd need a Divine Driver :P

insightful day...

during prayer meeting, we read and prayed thru ps27.
among the many verses i gleaned...
the last verse seemed quite profound.. 27:14 "Wait for the LORD, be strong, and let your heart take courage;
wait for the LORD!'

many things have been speaking to me.. like in weird times and places.. :P like at npcf room, this long long poem on waiting on the Lord. and reading various blogs too..

hmm..
wait on the LORD!

quite apt..

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today before npcf, luke, fuj and i were entering np...
then there was this grp of gals huddled around the longkang.. and there were guys also there wondering what to do. (prolly forming a committe and discussing ba.. :D )
so fuj went to ask what happened, and it seemed that some gal dropped her pen inside the slab..
then he just opened the slab took the pen, and gave the girl the pen.
seemed like the most duhhh thing to do..

and they were all around there wondering what to do.

fuj then said.
"many ppl wanna help, but they just dont want to get their hands dirty."

do you wanna get your hands dirty when serving Him?

There was a blackout one night. When the lights went out, I fumbled to the closet where we keep the candles for nights like this. I lit four of them. I was turning to leave with the large candle in my hand when I heard a voice, 'Now, hold it right there.'

'Who said that?'
'I did.' The voice was near my hand.
'Who are you? What are you?'
'I'm a candle.'

I lifted up the candle to take a closer look.
There was a tiny face in the wax.

'Don't take me out of here!'
'What?'
'I said, Don't take me out of this room.'
'What do you mean? I have to take you out. You're a candle.
Your job is to give light. It's dark out there.'

'But you can't take me out. I'm not ready,' the candle explained with pleading eyes.

'I need more preparation.'

I couldn't believe my ears. 'More preparation?'
'Yeah, I've decided I need to research this job of light-giving so I won't go out and make a bunch of mistakes. You'd be surprised how distorted the glow of an untrained candle can be....'

'All right then,' I said.
'You're not the only candle on the shelf.
I'll blow you out and take the others!'
But right then I heard other voices,

'We aren't going either!'

I turned to the other candles,
'You are candles and your job is to light dark places!'

'Well, that may be what you think,' said the first one,
'You may think we have to go, but I'm busy...
I'm meditating on the importance of light. It's really enlightening.'...

'And you other two,' I asked, 'are you going to stay too?'

A short, fat, purple candle with plump cheeks spoke up. 'I'm waiting to get my life together, I'm not stable enough.'

The last candle had a female voice, very pleasant to the ear.
'I'd like to help, 'she explained, 'but lighting the darkness is not my gift...I'm a singer. I sing to other candles to encourage them to burn more brightly.'

She began a rendition of 'This Little Light of Mine' The other three joined in, filling the closet with singing....I took a step back and considered the absurdity of it all. Four perfectly healthy candles singing to each other about light but refusing to come out of the closet.

suddenly makes it feel as if poly life is so long... abeit its just 2+ weeks.

its as if i can't believe im still in poly kinda feeling..
but of cuz, this is my last few days with my frens esp cfers.. make it to the fullest!

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idt has begun for me.

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i wonder what this year holds..

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of poly....

which means it's also my final days as a CFer...

officially that is. :P

2007 has just been awesome.
as i look back, i see such a beatiful story.

and yet again, it is full of HIs grace, His intervention, and so much growth.
Thank You LORD.

to close such a year as this, it was at sembawang park. with cfers. and closer ones all of them save for some who didn't go...

we crossed the midnight mark praying and sharing.
what a way right? it is going to be such a memorable year... memorable new year's eve too. we crossed the new yr w God...

too many too many things to give thanks for. one thing is for so many deep relationships in the recent months. its as if a sudden influx of them all...
which will make it more painful to leave them as i graduate soon :(..
esp the closer ones. the closer brothers and sister.

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oh wells... what does this year hold?

God holds it.
so the things that the year holds..
He holds it.

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the destination is no longer important. it is clear.

but before we get there... its a journey. a walk. a growth period...

no compromise.

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thank You. You alone are my strength my soul. my first love.

do i mean it? do i mean what i just type?

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its 08!

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okay i realised i havent been crap blogging for a long long time! heh, give the impression that im some holy moley serious dude on this blog..
but heck la..

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blessed nuuuu ear!